I quit.

I think it’s pretty obvious that I’m not going to do this the right way. Blogging isn’t for me. If you want to know what I’m up to, follow me on twitter or facebook. This is my last post. Sorry.

I’m not doing this every day

Duh, that’s pretty obvious.

I am doing more than I ever did… so I hope that I can eventually get into a daily routine like others.

Going with Leslee for a sonogram tomorrow… gonna take a look at the peanut in her belly. I’m really looking forward to it.

Updates tomorrow – hopefully. 🙂

I feel like…

working in a group is like trying to take a piss by committee. I’ve never played well with others and darn it, I’m unlikely to change. All I want in life is to be left alone to do my work and not have to waste my life worrying about what other people think of my work. I really don’t care. I like the people in my group and they are all swell people but I just can’t stand the work dynamic. It just feels uncomfortable, inefficient and an exhausting exercise in futility. The only thing that keeps me from losing my mind in meetings lately is that we’re almost done with the semester and I won’t have to worry about this kind of thing again (hopefully) while in grad school. I really do like the people I am working with and they certainly have helped me deal with my misgivings with respect to group work but I still just hate having to cooperate – I like to be graded on my work and only my work, good, bad or otherwise. That’s my philosophy when it comes to my education – I don’t want to carry or be carried by anyone. That way, if I screw up and do poorly it’s all on me and I don’t have to worry about the tremendous guilt I would feel in letting other people down. I have a vicious guilt problem and I do everything I can to avoid it… group work does nothing to help me in that pursuit.

I’ll be putting that vitriol in my review for the class too… not to mention my honest feelings for TAs and the special place in Hell set aside for them too.

I can’t stress enough how much t I like the people in my group but I can’t wait to be done with this damn class… I’ll never be an analyst (emphasis on the root of the word being ANAL) and I’ll never use what I’ve learned in practice as a professional but I do understand it’s a necessary evil for the program so I’ll suck it up for the last few weeks and then there will be much rejoicing (in every sense of the term)… Lord, please give me the strength.

*rant off*